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My friend posted this on his facebook status today:

" The teacher is always silent when the test is given. When God is silent in your life, you are being tested " - Rick Warren

When I read this, I know I have failed in the past year. I was serving Him, but my trust in Him was weak. Perhaps, I was being more and more confident of myself, and my relationship with God suffered a decline.

He did give me reminders during the year - there was a point in mid-year when I just sat at the last row in church, and my heart poured out to God. Vulnerable. Guilty. Just as I felt hurt for feeling neglected and not appreciated, I was reminded that I was doing the same to God. He must be feeling exactly the way I was feeling that time. However, at that moment, He also reminded through song that despite not being forgotten, He never forgets about me and He loves me regardless. That motivated me to carry on that time.

Now, its all about building a renewed me. It will be a slow climb up the well; I get tired sometimes or I might slip and lose my balance, but I know there's always someone who'll catch me when I fall.